New beginnings

We are the owners of our destiny. Even if we interact with people all the time, it's just the illusion they've changed our faith. Indeed, everyone needs to have a social life, part of a hierarchy, but for it's own benefits, it's compulsory to decide for itself... I've always tried to find excuses, to state that oh...I could have done that...ok...but why didn't I do it?
Romanian people have the belief in their "blood". Some may judge me...how can I state that an intagible asset can coordinate our actions? The cultural background is still alive, we, as a nation, need to raise like the Pheonix bird, from our own dust.
Selfish individuals may say that they don't have beliefs, that they are the masters of their own decisions. But never, I mean ... never, dind't they need a superior force to help them to keep on walking? And here I'm not reffering on friends, family&co...no,...to our alter ego. Indeed, the motivation is internal, you cannot be helped without having the initiative; but isn't in you something/someone that whispers you to move on?
You cannot see in the future without having incentive roots in the past. It's a saying "As much as you can look deep into the past, as much you can forsee your future". So, why shall we erase the memories, feelings, knowledge, just for the sake of having the freedom of building something new, totally unknow, in the future? It's so difficult to think just for a second, at our happiness, instead of our own goals/respect gained in society? To feel? Having no constraints? Just enjoy the moment? No matter who we are, who is our companionship, just be HUMAN in a globalisation society.
These are some of the reflections I felt while discussing with various foreigners last year. They have an awful image about Romanians, and about people's mentalities in special.

As a young generation, we want to create so many opportunities, but just as a saying, cause in the real world, we do nothing to aquire our dreams. Teenagers are promoted to go and study abroad, just to leave the country. But really, cannot we, as potential builders, to change future generations to better perspectives? That's why we are born? To help other nations to develop? And leave nothing to our origin nation? And our destiny is created by us...we need just to cope - take initiate-coordinate - and implement. Just unifying our forces we can be better. Without envying the others - just admiring them - and sustain, as a development group!

All these reasons were said because .. in a month, my destiny will be decided as well. I'm a 2-master-programs student, and will have 2 session exams...what can be more difficult than to fight for your perspectives? And yes, I admit I believe in God, with the superior concept of somebody who'se there and motivates you whaen you are in greatest need. Whay do I state all these above? Cause the chances of getting an Erasmus scholarship are quite low if I wanna get higher grades in both programs ... and I don't know yet how to improve the wealth of my country, but, no matter where I'll be in a few years/decades, i wanna help, cause this "shitty country", how it's the global general opinion, gave me so many...my parents, my brother, my nearest&dearest and ... my friends.
So, thank you Romania!

If you really want to do something, you will find a way. If you don;t, you'll find an excuse!

Sometimes it's okay to assume risks. Today, I've watched the record from the graduation's prom...it was great, but the greatest thing was the speech of my favourite teacher...she said we should assume our life, with good and bad occurences; to value each moment and be happy they've existed; to smile and look forward, learning from each thing that interacted with us.
Looking back, how many of us didn't say they would return back in time, just to have the chance of changing something. But, being so perfect, would be us still able to become better? To cry, laugh, socialise, learn and be taught? No...because NOBODY's perfect. Indeed, everyone is looking for perfection, or at least, a higher level than the counterparts, but, why don't we just stop; reflect and afterwards enjoy life?
So, this is my advice: enjoy life, as I do now (tomorrow it's my niece's baptism:X...so...family reunion!)

Eat, pray, love

Everybody is born for a certain purpose, we simply cannot find that "thing" just clapping our hands and wait like an order... we have to fight, to desire, to beg, to ask for divine help, and, in the end, obtain what we want, being satisfied and simply happy.

I think I found that "something" that would make me happy: travelling across the world, reading till sunrise about cultures, Zen, karma, yoga, sophisticated Russian society, English stilish society, just learning, learning, learning, get into people that are in the same place with you, speaking to you, for a reason, this is for certain!!!

And, of course, opening your heart, loving the world, the people in it, admiring your brother, relative, friend, mum, the 70 years old neighbour, the mad championship. Just engoing human-beings, being surrounded by them, giving back in response to that simple interacting fact a piece of your attention, gratitude, love. No tears, no regrets!

P.S: Hope we could all find the inner equilibrium!

Learning

It is said that people learn all the time. Indeed, travelling, run into interesting persons in different moments of the life cyrcle transform each of us in something...for ones for better, for the others for worse, and few stay just the same.
The main problem is what you actually do from what you become. The best solution is sharing your impressions, thoughts, even if sometimes it gives you the false sensation that nobody really followed what you have just said.
The world has become so complex that we feel so lost, no moral support, no emotional involvment...
But, let's just make a test: stay positive for an entirely day and see what happens...be the one who intiates the change you wanna see in the world (like Ghandi said once). Keep your normal actions somewhere in the air, try to become a better person. Maybe we cannot change a whole world, but at least 0,00000000000001% of it. Why? But Why not? Let's be better, life take-carring, offer our help to the others, withaut asking for phisical reward.
Why did I say all of it? Because it happended to me this month (October, yes). Losing my hope would have been the most stupid thing I could make, but ... I didn't, I just waited for the "sunshine", and, it was a mixture pf positively energies that gathered around me. Why? Because I believed that we could be better...we were, we are, we'll be!